Digital Illustrations

[Doodlebug]

I have not drawn in years - but I'll be getting back into it to blend my illustration with my verses (on my site) to make multimedia pieces.

These images are from .. well way back when - like 1992 and yeah I do web graphics - just been awhile. I did freehand, but I was diagnoised with carpal tunnel back in 1981 and nerve damage, worse in the left hand. They recommended I went to digital - which back then, was only animated gifs (they were still pretty new).

So here is my question for you - Living in past glory is easy... but drawing again after probably well over 20+ years is going to be ... difficult at best. These multimedia pieces, is what I want to be my lifes work. What I do from here to... well - what time I have left.

But putting the digital pencil to the drawing pad and just beginning is terrifying. What if I can't do it - what if I've lost my touch? I think finding out - is what I worry about. Knowing that I've lost it.

My daughter is an amazing illustrator. And for me, I need to be who I was back when - her inspiration to draw, not ... what ever comes from my pen now... You know?

I put copies to part of the sketches, but I do have work in progress for most of these.

The Illustrations/Art: I was learning how to mimic digital by opening up art books on oil, watercolor etc and using those same instructions to guide me. After all, the talent is there and digital is only a mere tool we use to put our creativeness to a digital piece of paper. PS: my married name was Waldron, I am now Jones.

Barry Sketch: http://www.allmytears.com/art/barry-sketch.jpg
Barry Finished: http://www.allmytears.com/art/barry.jpg

Butterfly Sketch: http://www.allmytears.com/art/butterfly-sketch.jpg
Buttefly Finished: http://www.allmytears.com/art/butterfly.jpg

Carousel Sketch: http://www.allmytears.com/art/carousel-sketch.jpg
Carousel Finished: http://www.allmytears.com/art/carousel.jpg

Colt Sketch: http://www.allmytears.com/art/colt.jpg
Fish Sketch (done in Microsoft Paint): http://www.allmytears.com/art/fish.gif
Hand (my ex and my daughters): http://www.allmytears.com/art/hand.jpg

These were mostly sketched in SmartSketch (Futurewave) a product that now is part of Flash. The art was done in Corel Photopaint 5 (maybe 4) and I had Windows 3.11.

Thank you btw - I have a reason to draw, and use all of my skill - but the fear of failure, of not being as I used to be - keeps holding me back. So, input requested

Deb.

[Amaranthine]

Jesus Christ, you're amazing.

[Doodlebug]

Jesus Christ, you're amazing.

Oh thank you ... I wish I could say I had been smart enough to DO something with all of this - but I did not. I let others get in..... hell - I made excuses and let others step on me.

Now I'm older, wiser - I'm too afraid. I used to play piano, and my daughters want me to create music for my multimedia - but you know what stops me? Me. The continual fear of not being good enough.. and then the question becomes - for who?

I think I'll get back to The Note - and finish it this weekend (it's on my website below).

I hope you all know I"m trying to say something here...

Fact is, you can say what ever - blame who ever - but in the end, it's really only you - standing in your own way.

[gutawafang]

You can easily top my class when I took Diploma in Digital Media few years ago man. I'll make you do ALL my assignments.

[Sam.]

The last three just blew my mind. It's needs a lot of precision and concentration to get that much detailing.