De'anumb Halftongue wrote:If you really want a pic I guess I can take one tomorrow. It doesn't look bad or anything just a half tongue. And I guess your right about my grip on reality. I'm thinking that God n Satan are negotiating for my soul right now. I'm just disgusted in myself. After what The Lord has pulled me out of here I am trying to make deals with the devil. Either way I will be what I was pre destined to become. By the way, were you labeled a schizo too?..
Just hang in there dude. There's a ton of options for people in your position. Message me if I can be of any help man, I know how scary it can get.
As a result of psilocin (the DMT extract of psilocybin mushrooms), I went through several weeks of truly believing that I was personally generating every thing and every body around me for the sake of my own conciousness' sanity- like the matrix. Undoubtedly the darkest, scariest time in my life. I'm now seeing a psychiatrist here by the name of Dr. John Bouras, and he's got me on a bipolar medication and Welbutrin XL for depression (used to be an SSRI but I asked to be taken off of it). I also take propranolol for my heartrate that loves in increase over the slightest bit of anxiety. And while these things were not an issue prior to my mushroom use, it's forced me to be healthier than ever in my life. I'm cherishing every day as if it's my last which is scary at times but I prefer it this way.
tl;dr: mushrooms drove me crazy for a few weeks/aint even mad
i'm comin in, drivin my short bus
with this nose i don't need a torch up
bustin through, light the industry's porsche up
comin after who didn't support us...
imma change your brain bring
every wicked bit of strange to mainstream
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Tech N9ne #SpecialEffects2015