i (no shit) almost got murdered in a hotel tonight

[Elision]

copy/paste from my fb: (lyn = girlfriend)

10:00pm - 2 hits of blotter lsd and left for dinner
11:30pm - home
12:00 - lyn starts giving me anxiety, because she's just too talky and fast
2:30am - put on headphones and decide to take a walk outside to clear my head
2:30am - left my hotel room (3rd floor up) and start heading towards the stairwell at the end of the hall, once i got near it, i felt like someone was behind me, so i turned around and there were 2 black men, roughly mid-20's, one to the left side of the hall, one to the right, about 10 feet and 15 feet away from me, slowly creeping towards me, that's when i was like "yo, what the fuck is up? you guys alright?" that's when their door opened and 3 or 4 more black dudes walked out, and they started cornering me at the end of the hallway, they had their door opened for me and they were telling me to walk in, and they asked if i'd rather get knocked out first. i started trembling "please don't do this" as i started walking towards the room (thanks to the acid i had already accepted my death and left my body by this point, i had literally no feeling in my body or sense of myself, completely numb). at some point as i was walking up, i was walking passed the stairwell that i was originally coming for, and with every muscle in my body i pushed open the door and jumped down each flight of stairs, next thing i remember is finding myself in the middle of the street puking my guts out in the rain
2:35am - lyn comes down looking for me and i put her in my car and we got the fuck out of there


about to fall asleep at lyn's grandmothers, i'll update and reply to and questions when i wake up

[Just Silver]

that sucks but why did they wanna beat u up

[Fleka]

1. Would you stop listening to tech if black guys whooped your ass?
2. Do you think that this Lyn set that up, those black guys to beat you up? Because, around 2:31 you get ambushed by them, you have a little talk and you run out. She comes out just 2-3 minutes later. Why didn`t those guys attack her? How did she get past them?
3. Did you lose your headphones?

[EG.]

your life is intriguing

[Atone]

and y'all say my stories are far fetched? this guy's on acid gettin shoved into hotel rooms by a gang of black dudes for no reason


actually, that kinda sounds like an Episode of Oz

[Trimss]

Wouldn't be surprising because we know he's moving so the hotel thing is something we already knew. We also know he does drugs.

And he didn't try to act like he did something brave or anything. He actually admitted being scared shitless and thinking he'd die.

[Elision]

2. Do you think that this Lyn set that up, those black guys to beat you up? Because, around 2:31 you get ambushed by them, you have a little talk and you run out. She comes out just 2-3 minutes later. Why didn`t those guys attack her? How did she get past them?

she came out to let me know that i had forgotten the room key, and she saw 2 of them on the way out (she went the opposite way towards the elevators)

3. Did you lose your headphones?

no they were earbuds, rather.

He actually admitted being scared shitless and thinking he'd die.

I always told myself that in a fight-or-flight situation where I knew for sure I was fucked, I would just act like the most hardcore badass ever to grace planet earth, on some wolverine jet lee monk shit. but let me tell you i'm so not that guy, i just lock up and tremble and it's actually really fucking with me now. i can't sleep.

The acid makes me question this (no offense), but if that's true, what the fuck? Who did you piss off?

what does the acid have to do with anything? the only reason i mentioned it is because i believe it attributed to me completely going OOB/numb and accepting that this was the end. i thought i was about to take a stab wound or a bullet, and if so i wouldn't have felt shit. also i'm an extremely friendly/peaceful person that keeps to myself, and i had never seen these guys before in my life. so i'm not sure why they'd want me specifically. i feel like they were just waiting for anyone alone in the hall, it was definitely choreographed on their part.

[Eedee]

Elision be leavin' yo

[Sam.]

If 6 niggaz stayed in a room, you'd prolly lock it.

Nah, seriously. Were you carrying anything expensive? Where you showing it of?

[Notalius]

Six niggas in one room the first time Elision got tossed

Stahp basedgod, STAAAAHP

[Trilla]

Nothing wrong with experimenting with other drugs. Doesn't make you a crack head unless you're sucking dick for the shit.

[SliK]

So you're back with Lyn?

[Recene]

Man... I don't even fucking know you, but I am really really glad you are ok and you survived that shit, never do drugs around places you don't know people.

[Epidemik]

maybe it was just the acid.. and you were like.. in a safe place the whole time.. just trippin balls.?
lol. for real though.. id probly shit myself... on purpose.. nobody gonna rape a dude when he just shit all over himself..
okay for really real though... thats some freaky shit... glad you didnt get raped or beaten or whatever they had planned.

[Elision]

thanks for all the love guys, i'm just thankful nothing happened to us.

maybe it was just the acid.. and you were like.. in a safe place the whole time.. just trippin balls.?

hah, i've never been on enough to see stuff that wasn't there, lsd doesn't work like that. just warping and womping. modifies your depth perception and such. i imagine once you get to that point you wouldn't able to get up and walk in the first place. but once i got down into the street i was like checking if i had died and gone through some sort of threshold because it really felt that way. i was checking to see if my contacts were still in my phone and that the moon was in the right place and shit. really fucked up and eerie feeling, and the only reason i mentioned the acid is because i'm not sure how much of that "i'm going to die"/"am i dead" shit was from the drug, or simply my brains reaction to dealing with that much adrenaline for the first time. either way it's easily the worst feeling i've ever had. i mean yeah whatever i've had death experiences on mushrooms, and i've dealt with it a lot more than some other people, but nothing prepares you for having it forced upon you out of nowhere. i've always assumed my death would be a foreseeable thing that i'd be able to somewhat plan around, and come to terms with. but having to accept the end when 30 seconds ago you were relaxing with your best friend is a process that the brain just isn't wired up for. it's such a clusterfuck of emotion that there's no proper reaction. i'm just extremely paranoid and snappy now, and i wish my nerves would calm down and i could get some fucking sleep because my body is exhausted but my mind won't relax enough to rest.

people being able to inflict harm upon innocent things feels like a glitch in the system of life. sympathy is what defines us as human beings. i'm sick of hearing about how we should punish those who have done irreversible things, the thing already happened, and nature allowed it. Which is unfortunately our god. I hate this realm, or frequency, or whatever the fuck it is. What's the point of built-in compassion and empathy when you share planets with evil. sick of feeling like i should do something about it and then realizing i'm too small and temporary to ever make any lasting impact. the ratio of genuinely good, whole-hearted people to the selfish and greedy is impossible to overcome. It's just too easy to give into evil for personal profit to ever expect enough people not to. i don't know, i really need to get sleep, i'm just a fucking mess right now.